Random Home Musings

I really didn't think that anyone still read this.

Yes, it's really hard. There are a lot of things I should have thought about before, loose ends I should have tied up, things I should have prepared for that I didn't and they are making it hard. I should have thought it would be really hard not to have a bed, really hard not to have my car, any of my own things.

The one relationship I was petrified of losing, and then convinced would never change...has. I knew it would I guess but not like this. That was my processing plan, having her here.

Psalms 13 is great. And so is the new Barlow Girl c.d.
And so is driving...even if it's not my car and it's just to run an errand for someone else. It's nice to be behind the wheel. That wil always be one of my most favorite things in the world, driving when it's dusk in winter, with music. I don't care where I'm going or why I'm going there. I love driving.

I love that Izze makes everyone sing the secret song and do a dance party before they can open her Burger King toy. Reminds me of Tim. And because she cried today and when I asked her what was wrong she said she just wanted to be naked. That reminds me of the boys too. She calls soccer: football but gets upset because she wants to be able to play in high heels. Reminds me of Jenn.

God is good.

This is so random. I am a writer but I'm trying so hard to keep myself in charge of my emotions and there going nuts. So pardon.

New Years will be nice to just start everything new...

I miss Jenn and Kevin.

I love being like best friends with someone before you ever talk on the phone. I love talking to Bitsy on the phone.

Jet lag or emotional...either way I can't eat but boy can I drink. (I've gone through $20 in Caribou gift cards in 2 days!)